Have you ever played the, if I would’ve, could’ve, and should’ve game? If you have, then you know it’s not fun. It’s normally associated with doubt and guilt. If I hadn’t done this, then this wouldn’t have happened. If I could've done this, then this would have happened. I should’ve done this, then this would have been the outcome. It’s an endless mind game that keeps you stuck in a vicious cycle. A cycle where you never have an answer, other than what you already have, because everything is a what-if.
The truth is, you made a decision. Whether the decision was good or bad, the decision was made and there is nothing you can do to change it. We don’t get to do days over and I’m glad we don’t because I would probably make the same mistake in a different way on a different day.
So, I’ll just take the lesson, learn, and grow from it and be grateful that I serve a God who can use all that we have done and turn it around for His glory. Before I make decisions now, especially rash decisions, I seek the decision maker first. Do I always hear what he says or get it right? No, but I know that I went to the one who had the answers.
I’m in the process of taking a class currently. Initially, when I saw the class online. I went to the presentation and my response was no. Not because I wasn’t interested, but no, because since I have a family I put everybody else's needs first. I put myself through the what-if cycle. What if I spend this money on this, then this happens. A year later, I came across the same class and I thought none of my what-ifs came true. I still had the battle, but I prayed first, and at the end of the presentation I joined. Am I learning from the class? Yes. Is the class a lot of work? Yes. Do I agree with all the things presented in the class? No. But I made the decision to invest in me and that has been my blessing.
Invest in yourself. “Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.” Proverbs 4:7
Don’t be selfish, consider others. “Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than themselves. Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.“ Philippians 2:3-4
Change your mindset. “And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.“ Romans 12:2
By doing these things…over time, I’ve been learning how to incorporate Christ into every area of my life.
Below are two books that God has inspired me to write. "The Flip Side" and "Blinded By Sight: The Heart Matters" both available now.
So… what’s this book about?
“The Flip Side” depicts the possible feelings and emotions of lesser-known Biblical characters as they navigated their lives in the shadows of the more popular characters in the Bible. While the Bible gives us snippets of their stories, we are usually left in the dark about their true motives, desires, and thoughts concerning the situations they are in. However, one certainty is that despite how little we know about these characters, they were often the catalysts to pivotal moments in the main characters’ lives.
So… what’s this book about?
Join me on a journey of self-discovery. “Blinded by Sight - The Heart Matters” is a compilation of short biblical devotions. These stories are not conclusive. They are depictions of how God is revealing my heart to me.
My prayer is, Lord, make it real for me, show me your heart, show me my heart, and give me the wisdom to change what hinders my relationship with you. I am learning that my perception is my biggest obstacle it affects my mind, what I think, and how I process my experiences. What I have experienced in my mind is expressed through my feelings and these experiences dictate my choices either consciously or subconsciously.
This devotional will allow you to explore and evaluate your past and present situations that have hindered you from seeing the heart of the matter. Simply put, look at the heart – it does matter. Your future depends on it!
I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Psalms 34:4